When I see myself in the mirror 

My reflection is distorted 

I wish the silhouette could be clearer

But my feelings were unsupported — 

The pain inside goes way to deep 

I try to bury it and keep going 

But the triggers make me weep 

I dont want the scars to keep showing —

 Somedays I paste on a fake smile 

 And laugh so I can truly hide 

Then I see you smirking ever so vile 

 And the pain washes over me like a tide —

All that little girl in the mirror wanted to see 

 Was a stable mother who was there 

 The silhouette that needed to be —

 A person she could rely on who was aware 

 I tell myself it will go away 

Close your eyes little one 

 That person will not stay —

 But even now I still come undone 

Life has been hard by choices I have made 

 People who love you and supposedly care 

Are the ones you cant depend on 

 Its like living with no air —

I snap out of my distorted silhouette 

 Regain my composure 

 Even if the tears have stained my face all wet 

 Goodbye little girl here comes the closure 

 Pick yourself up and paint on your smile 

 Your new life begins here 

 Release the pain and raise your head high.

By Heather Parker